Images and Words

Sai and Alvin’s wedding ceremony landed on the 48th hour of this ritual I call no-sleeping-because-of-reasons. I never really thought about anything serious coming into (I was trying to nap in the cab), during (I was socializing and taking some photos), and after the ceremony (I’m thinking about my next appointment). So when I finally came home after doing everything that I had to do for the day, I just lied down on my bed, and that’s when all the nostalgia came to me.
Well, this is kinda big for me, first, because Sai is one of my closest friends ever, and second, because this is the very first wedding I’ve attended where the person getting married is not my relative and is in my age-group. And then it hit me, “Yes, Josh. For the first time, one of your closest friends got married. You’re getting old.”, I said to myself. But I corrected myself quickly, I’m just 22 (please get it right) and I’m still young. But then I realized, Sai is just 21, was it too early to get married? By that time, I’m starting to argue with myself.
I posed lots of questions: How old should a person be before getting married? Are they still too young for this? Isn’t this too big of a responsibility for the both of them as of the moment? I mean, I’m just a year older and I’m pretty much sure I’m not getting married anytime soon (due to reasons - off topic). But how? How did they end up with this huge decision (because I know for a fact that they’re not just forced by some ~misfortune~ as people call it)? One word popped out of my mind and as soon as I realize it, my palm just traveled straight to my face. It hit me again (not the palm).

Maturity - noun. The state of being mature; ripeness; full development; perfect condition.

I tried to think of myself and wondered if this word applies to me. It doesn’t. I mean, I looked at myself and I just saw a kid playing Xbox everyday, eating expensive foods every pay-day, saving some of his salary to buy electronic gadgets, and basically ignoring the fact that one day he’ll have to make huge decisions that will forever affect his life.
I quickly got back up, opened the computer and sorted the wedding photos. I looked at their smiles, their nervous yet excited faces, their certainty and realized: This is not movie-like love. This is beyond sweetness. This is far more than just romance. I know how it feels to be in a romantic relationship, I was in one for five years and I can tell you that It’s not about the time, nor is it just about the love. It’s about the commitment and the readiness of both parties. For someone not forced into getting married decides to get married, it’s more than just love, it takes a different level of maturity. A level that I have yet to achieve, or maybe, a level that I have yet to aim to achieve. This is kind of paradoxical because some might say that it’s the love that pushes you to maturity. But whichever way it is, I’m pretty sure I’m still very very far from close from both.
Oh well, their wedding’s a very good experience for me. Now, it’s okay that they’re younger than me. They’re not the ones to be questioned here, I am. They humbled me.

Sai and Alvin’s wedding ceremony landed on the 48th hour of this ritual I call no-sleeping-because-of-reasons. I never really thought about anything serious coming into (I was trying to nap in the cab), during (I was socializing and taking some photos), and after the ceremony (I’m thinking about my next appointment). So when I finally came home after doing everything that I had to do for the day, I just lied down on my bed, and that’s when all the nostalgia came to me.

Well, this is kinda big for me, first, because Sai is one of my closest friends ever, and second, because this is the very first wedding I’ve attended where the person getting married is not my relative and is in my age-group. And then it hit me, “Yes, Josh. For the first time, one of your closest friends got married. You’re getting old.”, I said to myself. But I corrected myself quickly, I’m just 22 (please get it right) and I’m still young. But then I realized, Sai is just 21, was it too early to get married? By that time, I’m starting to argue with myself.

I posed lots of questions: How old should a person be before getting married? Are they still too young for this? Isn’t this too big of a responsibility for the both of them as of the moment? I mean, I’m just a year older and I’m pretty much sure I’m not getting married anytime soon (due to reasons - off topic). But how? How did they end up with this huge decision (because I know for a fact that they’re not just forced by some ~misfortune~ as people call it)? One word popped out of my mind and as soon as I realize it, my palm just traveled straight to my face. It hit me again (not the palm).

Maturity - noun. The state of being mature; ripeness; full development; perfect condition.

I tried to think of myself and wondered if this word applies to me. It doesn’t. I mean, I looked at myself and I just saw a kid playing Xbox everyday, eating expensive foods every pay-day, saving some of his salary to buy electronic gadgets, and basically ignoring the fact that one day he’ll have to make huge decisions that will forever affect his life.

I quickly got back up, opened the computer and sorted the wedding photos. I looked at their smiles, their nervous yet excited faces, their certainty and realized: This is not movie-like love. This is beyond sweetness. This is far more than just romance. I know how it feels to be in a romantic relationship, I was in one for five years and I can tell you that It’s not about the time, nor is it just about the love. It’s about the commitment and the readiness of both parties. For someone not forced into getting married decides to get married, it’s more than just love, it takes a different level of maturity. A level that I have yet to achieve, or maybe, a level that I have yet to aim to achieve. This is kind of paradoxical because some might say that it’s the love that pushes you to maturity. But whichever way it is, I’m pretty sure I’m still very very far from close from both.

Oh well, their wedding’s a very good experience for me. Now, it’s okay that they’re younger than me. They’re not the ones to be questioned here, I am. They humbled me.